In the summer of 1967, having
lost my student exemption a few months earlier, I was drafted into the
army. At age 22, I was older than most
of my fellow draftees, with most of a college education. In spite of these things in my favor, I was
as uncertain about my prospects in this strange new environment as any of the
other young men in my group of inductees.
I was, in a word, scared.
We were harried and harassed by barking sergeants from one
place to another. “Tighten up that
line!” “Attention! Left face! Forward
march! Halt!” Strange commands we had
never heard outside the movies came in a continuous stream. We were lost and far from home, adrift in a
strange new world where we knew no one and any past experiences we had had were
useless and forgotten. Looking back, I
can see that this was the first step in forging the bond that is the essential part
of turning a bunch of individuals into a unit that can perform the impossible
task of combat. By picking on us and
stripping us of our civilian identities, the sergeants were turning us into US.
At the time, it only seemed that they were bent on maximizing
our discomfort and proving that we were unfit for service. They nearly had me convinced that this last
part was true, or at least something to worry about. I remember being distinctly doubtful that I
could meet the army’s expectations, wondering, “Can I do this? Can I be a soldier.” I don’t think I actually thought about what
the consequences of failure might be, I simply dreaded the prospect of failing.
Then, into all this fear and worry, came salvation. It came in the form of another young soldier, a Spec4 (Specialist 4th class) working as a clerk checking the inoculation
forms of the line of men I was standing in.
He wore glasses, weighed maybe one twenty, and looked like he would be
hard put to even pick up an M14 rifle, much less fire one. He took my papers, checked them off against
his list and handed them back. As I
moved on to the next station I was thinking, “He made it through basic. He has even been promoted. What have I been so worried about? If he can do it so can I.”
That was the last time I worried about “making it” in the
army, and when I left the service after completing a tour of duty in South
Korea it was with a sergeant’s stripes on my sleeve. I came out of the army with the confidence that
comes from a set of experiences I could draw on for the rest of my life; beginning with that one in basic training.
I must admit I am so glad they didn't draft women, that was such a scary time. Everyone knew at least one someone who didn't make it back. I don't know how you or anyone dealt with the day to day fear of dying. I certainly have a ton of respect for anyone who has served in the military.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on coming through a harrowing time a true champion. You must have been so proud of yourself. Like Kc, I have a ton of respect for you and all others who put their lives on the line for the rest of us. Crazy times call for brave folks, and you were (and surely still are) one of those brave ones! ♥
ReplyDeleteThank you for your service. My husband was in the Air Force around the same time. I knew several fine young men who did not return from Vietnam and to this day I still hold much anger over the policy that sacrificed so many of our young men over there.
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