Here’s a “might have been” story from my past, fifty years
past. It takes place in late May or
early June of 1965. There’s no message
here, just a little of Grandpa B’s history and maybe a little impetus for
reflection.
I had just completed my sophomore year at Aurora College and
my friend, Ken, who had come there from Maine, was looking for someone to share
driving chores so he could go home for a few days before returning to a job in
Illinois. I was twenty years old and had
basically never been anywhere so I jumped at the chance. Our route took us across Canada so I even got
to leave the country for the first time; and then added the states of New York,
Vermont, New Hampshire and Maine to the few Midwestern states I had already
visited or lived in. Driving straight through, trading drivers whenever one of
us got too tired to continue, took about twenty four hours.
Seeing new places and hearing different regional accents
were wonderful, as was seeing the ocean for the first time. I still have among
my mementos a piece of granite the size and shape of a baseball that I brought home from my day at the ocean.
My friend had a younger sister, Lois, who was just days away
from graduating from high school. She
played hooky (skipped school if you are unfamiliar with “hooky”) for one of the
days Ken and I were there. I actually
don’t remember any of the things we did that day other than riding around in
Ken’s car seeing the local sights which were mostly pine forests and potato
fields.
Late in the day as we were heading back to the little town they
lived in I found her hand in mine, feeling as though it really belonged
there. I remember looking at her and
seeing her smiling and wondering why. I
knew I was feeling especially good but wasn’t sure what was prompting her mood.
Two days later Ken and I were on our way back to Aurora, she
and I never so much as shared a kiss, and I never saw her again. We did exchange a few letters and in one of
them I asked her why she had been smiling so that night. Her answer was that she had been feeling as I
had and that holding my hand had been special for her just as it had been for
me. In time, we each went on in our own
directions, but I still think of her some times and may still have the one
photo I took of her tucked away with some other memories.
There is nothing that would induce me to trade the life I
have had for any other, or even to wish that I could. It is simply pleasant to reminisce and maybe
spend a few minutes thinking of what “might have been.” I hope life has been as
good to her as it has been to me.
I remember a similar moment. The sparks were there, but the moment was wrong.
ReplyDeleteMaybe in a parallel universe.
DeleteNice memories. I guess we all have those special moments that resurface every once in a while and bring a smile.
ReplyDeleteLike a box of treasures from the past that we pull out and look at once in a while.
DeleteBeautiful memory, beautiful writing as always, Bob! Your grandkids should cherish this peek into your past as a young college kid on an adventure and knowing these kind of moments and people who cross our paths help make us who we are! Well done!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Joan; your comments are always so kind.
DeleteNot only will your grandchildren get a peak into your past, so did we. I love memories like these.
ReplyDeleteI think we all have some of these memories.
DeleteIt's funny how we keep these little pieces of sweet moments tucked away. The feelings never change. They are still there when we revisit them....and always, absolutely always, they make us smile.
ReplyDeleteKind of like when I read your stories from Neff Road.
DeleteIt's good to be able to think of these times without genuine regret, because life doesn't give us do-overs! And we never will know what would have happened if we had taken a different path. But sometimes it's nice to wonder.
ReplyDeleteNo regrets, no more than a tiny wisp of might have been.
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